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Borrowed Time

A Midnight Thought

There are moments in the stillness of the night
when the world grows quiet enough
for the deeper questions to rise.

Midnight Thoughts is a space born in those hours—
between darkness and dawn—
where faith meets uncertainty,
where weakness meets surrender,
and where we learn to breathe again
one breath at a time.

Tonight’s thought is simple, yet heavy:

How much time do I have left?

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The Question That Lingers

How much time do I have left?

It’s a question that visits me often.

I think about the day the neurologist told me I had ALS.
I think about how quickly this disease has progressed.

At first, I avoided learning anything about ALS—
not because I didn’t want answers,
but because I was afraid of what I might find.

Fear has a way of making us avoid the questions
that matter most.

Sometimes we avoid the truth
not because it’s unclear—
but because it’s heavy.

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Living With the Numbers

The average life expectancy for someone with ALS
is often said to be two to five years.

I’m at two and a half years now.

Some might say I’m living on borrowed time.

But… am I?

That question opens the door to faith.

When time feels limited,
faith widens the view.

ALS may place numbers on a timeline—
but it cannot define eternity.

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What Scripture Reminds Us

The Bible says in James 4:14:

“Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring.
What is your life?
For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.”

This verse does not bring fear.
It brings clarity.

It reminds us that none of us truly know
how much time we have.

Life has always been fragile.

ALS didn’t create that truth—
it revealed it.

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Living With an Eternal Perspective

Living with an eternal perspective
means holding our plans loosely.

It means trusting that God’s plan
may overrule our own.

When we surrender our timeline to Him,
something shifts.

Peace replaces anxiety.
Trust replaces fear.
And the unknown future rests
in the hands of a sovereign God.

Peace comes when we stop counting days
and start trusting God.

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What Borrowed Time Has Taught Me

Maybe it’s not about
how much time I have left—

but how I choose to live
with the time I’ve been given.

Each breath is a gift.
Each sunrise is a reminder
that God’s plan is still unfolding—
even when I cannot see the road ahead.

I may be living on borrowed time.

But that time belongs
to the One who gave it.

And in that truth…
I find peace.

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A Quiet Invitation

If you’ve been counting your days lately…
if uncertainty feels heavy…
if the future feels fragile—

Pause.

Breathe.

Remember that none of us were promised tomorrow—
but all of us are held by the One
who stands outside of time.

What would change
if you stopped counting days
and started trusting God with them?

Even here.
Even now.
Even in weakness.

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Thank you for spending this quiet moment with me.

If this Midnight Thought spoke to your heart,
I invite you to like, share, and subscribe to Breath By Breath With ALS so we can continue walking this journey together.

Share this message with someone
who may be wrestling with uncertainty.

And as always—

Until next time,
God bless.

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